Time waits for None

eh? like finally..

2009-11-27T05:58:00.000-08:00

don't ask me why I'm here. Maybe I just want to write a thing or two. I love my friends :D

Alhamdullilah

2009-01-29T19:47:00.000-08:00

MOE:

AHMAD FAIZ BIN MOHAMAD SIDEK, you are posted to NGEE ANN POLY,HEALTH SCIENCES(NURSING)(N69) under 2009 JAE.

I know

2009-01-22T05:42:00.000-08:00

I know my blog's utterly boring and I'm a hundred percent sure no one out there reads it-at all! But, I don't care nor do I mind nor do I care ,again. The reason why this has been a boring blog is due to the fact that I don't feel the importance in typing all the boring happenings that's been happening lately. Even if I did anything interesting, I should be the only one to know and that means you not knowing-whoever 'you' is. Ok, if you seriously wanna know... I have been trying to stay as productive and fresh as possible by going out to Ngee Ann Library( gosh! it's cool) to read up on some books related to nursing(they have tons of them there). Other than that I have been to two hospitals- Alexandra and NUH , just to walk around, just to know how a hospital looks like. While at NUH, I dropped off my volunteer application form into a box.However, don't you think I keep doing stuffs that somehow are a bit related to nursing-for I am not a vampire that sucks well,nursing-related stuffs 24/7. To make my stand clear, I have been to VivoCity twice- 1)shopping 2) seriously, I don't know why! .... At home, I am often stuck with this computer in front of me.Sometimes I use a bit too much of it that I feel like puking...but that's another story. Well, that's the end of my story titled ' I know' and ending with the word 'story'. The End.

Bought something!

2009-01-19T20:34:00.000-08:00

Super thrilled! woooots....because I have just bought something which I really like. Though it's pretty expensive ,hopefuly it's worth all the money and be a useful thing to me for a very long time. So,without futher a do , lets unveil JanSport Wasabi (black) backpack! hehe

Bored

2009-01-17T02:54:00.001-08:00

Yesterday, I went to VivoCity with my dearest mama to buy some of my clothes for Poly school this year.After which we went our seperate ways-mama back home and me to the nearby mosque for my Friday prayers.

Next stop was Alexandra Hospital. Haha, I know . Maybe I am really too enthusiastic about the nursing course I'm gonna take.Even mama has to remind me time and again not to burn out early like I did so for my O's. I hope not, too...anyway I went there to just have a feel to be in a hospital.You know, like how the nurses and doctors work there,what they do plus seeing real patients and knowing the many departments there.It was a very interesting visit, I have to say.

For the past few days, I have been feeling super-unproductive and a mixture of boredom and frustration. I have long been thinking of volunteering at a hospital, but you must have commitment for that, we are talking like up to 6 months-type -of-commitment! Thus, I am a bit unoptimistic about it as I fear this may clash with my schedule in poly later on. But,again-I am very very interested! If really I'm going to volunteer , it'll be at NUH or Alexandra hospital . Another thing that worries me is that since I'm just only 16and a half,they'll just dump me in the administation area, meaning no contact with the patients.

Moving on...

I'm still waiting waiting anxiously for the reply from NUH for my nurse shadowing.I really hope I get to do it....argh, I need to be patient.

The New Beginning

2009-01-12T20:16:00.000-08:00

Yesterday at around 2pm, I went back Kent Ridge Secondary School to collect my GCSE O level results. I didn't want to put any pressure on myself so I decided not to set any good expectations or bad possibilities. I just would except any results I get, and move forward. Considering I got a L1R5=26,L1R4=20 for my Prelims and I slacked till the last minute plus the fact that I didn't have much confidence in the papers I took, no one can imagine how I feel when I saw my O's results: a shocking L1R5=18, L1R5=15! alhamdullilah...

I was really superbly insanely overjoyed by the pleasent results I got back. The feeling of joy I felt on that 12 of Jan 2009 was nothing like any I've felt before. I went through a lot , I guess- I was at my very peak in Sec 2, when I was in the top 5 of the whole level.. and all of a sudden come Sec 4, I misperformed and even was in the bottom 5 of my class during Prelims.It was really demoralising and I nearly wanted to give up. My family gave me all the support I need yet I felt I was just in the wrong course.Then I realised, I really had to go through the O levels even how tough the going seems.So,I tried to keep on going admist procrastination, lack of motivation and laziness.

My mother is right. Maybe, this is a second chance given to me-a new beginning. Other people who have done better may think,''Why are you still happy,you did not get many A's and that's not really a small number'' But, I am happy because I pass,I am eligible to go to the course I want and I accept my results.

Alhamdullilah..indeed it is a new beginning.

5 hours to go

2009-01-11T17:25:00.000-08:00

to O level results.Nervous, now!

(oh! it's 12 jan today-sth wrong with the blog's date..i donno how to change,but i dun care-im freaking out)

If you were the patient ,what type of nurse would you like to have?

2009-01-10T07:56:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, I had this question stuck in my mind. I really want to know other's opinion on it, be it positive or negative. So, I posted the question up on allnurses.com , and so far 17 replies were written down by fellow website members(nurses/nursing students)

Well, the question goes like this :

''I'm just trying to find out ways nurses and nursing students are able to do to provide even better patient care(:
None of us is perfect, but we have to improve ourselves and not allowing our ability to remain stagnant . Share with others what would be your ideal type of nurse. Just imagine yourself as a patient who knows little or nothing of what nurses learn.Put yourself in the patients shoes and also tell me what qualities you wish your nurses taking care of you should or should not possess.

Thank you,
Ahmad.''

So far I've gotten very interesting and informative answers from them. Most of them said they would prefer a nurse that is very knowledgable,skilled yet still friendly and compassionate ( sympathetic/caring). A small minority( 1-3) said they would rather have one that's not too overly-caring,but instead one who does his job instead of comforting the patient with his talk.

For me, I think a nurse should be one who provides the most comfortable surroundings for the patient,even if he is terminally ill and has a hairpin chance of living. To me, it is the most humane thing one can do to ensure the patient is distracted from the pain or feels good that someone is there present with him.Thus, maybe a nurse who chats with the patient at the right time( when patient feels lonely etc), lends a listening ear (when the patient feels uncertain and afraid or in pain) and one who tells them that the nurses will do all they can to save his life. Of course, one has to have the best knowledge and skills, but that alone will not do. The patient does not see your world class quality skills,no.Rather, I think they'll feel that a kind soul is willing to try his best to save a sick patient.

However, I am still learning, even now I have still yet to enter a nursing school. Obviously, no one is perfect.But I think one have to take a step forward and improve ourselves so that we know what we've done wrong and that can be avoided--what with done right, that can be done excellently.

I have a big dream. What I want to do is to do good. O levels-insyAllah...

Stinky

2009-01-09T17:18:00.000-08:00

Yep, I've just woken up from bed.

Today I will be going to Ngee Ann Poly a second time to accompany my ex-jin tai pri schoolmate there. I have also decided to survey the school of Health Science again to familiarise better with the surroundings.Also, I would like to find out the places I can chill out and just relax from all the nursing . A break would do me good, I believe. Furthermore, I have to choose on a CCA...Im quite interested in archery,yea..it makes me feel like a warrior and kinda lifts my morale and confidence up, somehow! But, I'll see first what I'll end up doing.

The second important thing that has happened is a very encouraging e-mail reply from the Assistant Manager of the nursing department of NUH saying I can actually job shadow a nurse, after initially apologizing to me saying she can't due to privacy reasons.I'm thankful I may get the chance to do such a thing as I will be able to gain,though not much,but at least a little experience on nursing and what it's like in a hospital.The reply was totally unexpected-alhamdullilah! I've send back my reply of what my interest is and what I wish to learn to them. I just hope that the hospital will reply and give me the date of when I get to nurse shadow.

So, that's all for now. I'ts 9.39 am now, I'm meeting my friend at 1.30pm. Also, I have to return to school as there is some error in the receipt which I got from paying my school fees. If not, I'm in deep trouble, for I probably will not get my results then.

So, I'm going to bathe now.I know, I'm very stinky, indeed.

Why Nursing?

2009-01-08T02:25:00.000-08:00

Many of my friends often ask me time and again why why why would I want to take up nursing.''Why not become a doctor?''-that's the usual question they use to convince me that nursing is not a high job. I usually do not know how to explain back to them about my decision. Back then, I didn't even think about nursing , what more I never knew there would be nursing in a polytechnic.But , many events took place that soon cause me to have a sudden interest of this course.Now, I want to state down clearly the reasons I wish to pursue a career in nursing as a motivation for my future.

1)I want to help the patients (sick,old, mentally-special) in any ways I can to keep them comfortable and sustain the pain they are suffering.

2)I want to learn life-saving skills so that I can apply anytime,anywhere in cases of emergency.

3)I want to be involve in the middle of a challenging job.

4)I want to gain more confidence and hone my thinking skills by interacting with patients and fellow nursing students.

5) I want to learn to communicate better and get my thoughts out clearly and appropriately.

I'm sure there's more I'll learn along the way...

Trip to Poly Open Houses ( NP & NYP )

2009-01-08T01:23:00.000-08:00

I'm feeling exhausted after just returning from Nanyang Poly. Well, today I felt it was my responsibility to find out more about the nursing course I'm so interested in studying and maybe pursuing , thus the reason why I went to the two polys that has the nursing course. First stop was Ngee Ann Poly. Upon reaching the campus , I rushed my way to the school of health science and found out I was the first outsider there. Since I didn't come with any of my classmates, I walked around the school acting blur in hope that someone friendly might bring me into the rooms.

Impressive!- - - the rooms looked exactly like any other wards in a hospitals , the machines are way too tech-cool and most importatly people here are very friendly and approchable. I got to try CPR, got my arm bandaged in a cast, push a plastic baby out of the mother's womb,head first!-,use a stethoscope to listen to the heart and lungs, insert IV tube into patient's arm vein, observe a demo at the OT(operation theatre), use a defibrillator to revive the heart to norm, measure my own blood pressure and electrical (lvl ?) in my body and lastly, went into the neonatal care room-babies - How about that!

I'm not going to say much about Nanyang Poly other than it took me almost an hour to reach Yio Chu Kang MRT station and nearly another half hour finding the poly building itself .Plus, I don't quite love the atmosphere feeling in the campus, unlike the bustling cheerful campus of Ngee Ann. So...

I just pray I can get into nursing. I really want it.
4 more days to go, huh?

The clock is ticking ...

2009-01-07T05:43:00.000-08:00

Am I scared? I am. Am I ready to face the results ?I'm not.
arghhhhhhhhh!!! - what to do, what to do.
O lvl result date : 12 Jan 2009-that's 5 more days!

Audrey told me about the big Oh my-news. I'm definitely going to have sleepness nights for 5 solid nights! How am I going to react when I get my results, am I going to pass . If I had studied from the beginning of 2008, I wouldn't be in the position I am right now- stress, uptight,nervous.
I know I should not be dwelling on my past mistakes and regrets but I really ought to have put in some reasonable effort.
Now, I'll just have to play the waiting game.
I've got to move on, I know...I'll just have to pray harder. I just have to know that I'll pass.

insyALLAH. Oh help me!

Upcoming events

2009-01-02T03:56:00.000-08:00

Yep, I'm bored at home but I've been Facebook-ing and loving it! Haha , I never knew websites like this can make one addicted. I'm glad I'm actually enjoying to socialize with friends because I'm not usually good at it. Together with blogging, Facebook is actually my first!
Maybe I'm wasting some time with it, but maybe I'm not. I'm actually making friends and getting to know others better.

This is what one writes when he is bored.period.

Anyway, I just need a reminder of the events coming out
so,

8-10 Jan (11am-6pm) : -Ngee Ann Poly Open ,Nanyang Poly Open House( Day), Singapore Poly Open House ...and maybe JC Open house?

9 Jan (11 am-9pm) : -Nanyang Poly Open House (Night)
12 Jan (tentative) : - O LEVEL RESULT DAY ?!

2009 - moving Forward

2008-12-31T18:01:00.000-08:00

It's the new year and what better way to improve myself as a person is to have a resolution- my aims,my goals. Not forgetting the things I ought to stop doing or overcoming my bad habits. Besides, time waits for none (which includes me). Better get things done than waste them So, here it is:

Be productive at all times.
Finish any books I start reading( and read more)
Spend more time on ngaji.
Do simple household chores.
Make more friends.
Create stronger bonds with family members.
Be more well-groomed to boost confidence.
Be more organised with school work.
Exercise more.
Solat on time.

Must overcome:

Lack of confidence/shy?
Laziness
'tak apa ' (don't care)attitude
Forgetfulness
Stress:D

Time waits for no one...